Tuesday, November 22, 2011

lights will guide you home




BoyceAvenue- Fix You ( Coldplay )
Linkin Park- Rolling in the Deep ( Adele )
Beyonce- If I were a Boy


Training was really intense yesterday, crazy even, but it felt wonderful. I felt good pushing myself so hard, trying my best. That's it. Just that. Nothing really excites me now, nothing really awakens me and sadly the one thing I've been pushing myself for has been money, work after work after work. I wonder why I work so hard sometimes, I don't have a plan as to where the money should go, not yet at least. But what I do know is that I need to do it and I'll put it to good use one day. Funny how it seems so clear to me now, yet when people have inquired, all i managed was a shrug.


It's no longer just because " I don't take allowance from my mum ", it's more than that otherwise I could take more of a breather and not worry so much about lagging behind on the promo jobs. Until I find that missing piece, I'll keep working. I guess it's the same for dance now, for everything else. I have no true drive, no real purpose or meaning in what I do, but what I do know is that everything is still happening for a reason.


I have to have faith in that one belief that
" Everything happens for a reason, this too shall pass"
And i will try as much as it takes to believe in what I have chosen to ink on my bare skin, this one belief that I told myself and many others to be " The way I want to live my life"



*waves pompoms* Go Audrey, go. This too shall pass.



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As far as the pixels go, this was as much as what I could manage. The past couple of weeks.
I want to go back to back then, day 1, it never fails to send them down my rouge tinted cheeks.



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