Monday, October 1, 2012

How many circles do you want to run around the same tree

I'm writing this because I've been going around in circles. For years. Over the same thought. 

That I'd never be good enough for anyone.

As much as it hurts me, it always hurts and frustrates the person I'm with. That comes back as a cycle, a sad one. It's not like I'm a terrible girlfriend, I'm willing to go to great lengths for the one I love, I'm willing to keep my temper in check, and of late I've been keeping my sad thoughts to myself simply because I know the circles I'm running it. But guess what? I'm still running around that same fucking tree.


One moment I'm okay. One moment I'm this emo little shit, tearing at small little things, being an overly sensitive prick and beating myself up over god knows what reason when I've done nothing wrong. I really don't get myself. Is it that difficult to get out of having self esteem issues? After all these years, I'm still not out of it.

Isn't it so much easier to just not go through feeling like this, messing things up over nothing, then having to apologise for being so sensitive, and then feeling like shit for being oversensitiveeee?

Well, yes it it.

Stop being such a fucking piece of tofu, Audrey.
It's annoying.

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