Thursday, April 24, 2014

Hello Stranger






Hi, it's been a long while since I've felt like this. August 2013, that's how long it's been. I've been backsliding as the days went by and I think I've hit an all time low since it all began a month back. It took me so long to truly grasp hold of why... Why had I started to feel like this? Why am I feeling like this? You'd think the answers would lend a pinch of help- it sure gave my mind a tight slap to wake the fuck up, but my heart's a mangled mess, a burrowed in and hollowed out mess. Here I am back to ground zero, back to where I'd taken flight a few months back. I feel like a deer in the headlights-  everything's a shocking yet numbing blur and I've lost sense of time. I sleep when the sun creeps in, with curtains drawn and morose music resonating. Then the stars call and I'm alive again, alive and comfortable in my familiar nest of hustle, liquid gold and frivolous souls.


I made some really big decisions, ones that many would frown upon but who the fuck is anyone to say anything when everything is weighed solely on my shoulders?



I also got a tattoo. Icarus, that crazy motherfucker who flew too close to the sun.



I'd be better.
The light only shines bright when it's dark anyway.







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3 comments:

  1. you write so well. /hugs

    hope you're okay.

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  2. So wake me up when it's all over
    When I'm wiser and I'm older
    All this time I was finding myself
    And I didn't know I was lost

    I tried carrying the weight of the world
    But I only have two hands
    Hope I get the chance to travel the world
    But I don't have any plans

    Wish that I could stay forever this young
    Not afraid to close my eyes
    Life's a game made for everyone
    And love is the prize

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  3. hope u okay
    u need dark to see the best light
    i'm curious with ur icarus tattoo

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